the title of a song by Something Corporate (#)…
yes, it’s my birthday today, and guess what, I turned 21 today!
I expected it to be totally different, turning 21, I thought I would have a girlfriend, my first diploma, my own apartment / studio, …, … from this moment,
but I have… well, none of these things 
It seems that I fuck everything up that I try, from lack of courage, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but I can’t set my mind for a long time to something, like yeah, I love coding.. but after an hour, I have to do something else, or when studying, I would rather look out the window for an hour.. why? I don’t know, it just doesn’t work for me 
if someone can help me, please comment to this post
otherwise, I’ll quote a part of this song that is probably very true for me:
We’re 21 and invincible
Can’t wait to screw this up
We’re 21 and invincible
I’m in power for the hour
I guess today’s gonna blow us away
yes, this is how I feel now
anyway: happy Birthday to myself!
You are becoming old!
but I can�t set my mind for a long time to something, like yeah, I love coding.. but after an hour, I have to do something else
I know that the stereotype for programmers is long nights of Mt Dew, pizza and hacking, but not everyone is built for that and it’s ok. In practice I’ve found that there are loads of programmers who don’t fit this profile, and when you work for a company that’s certainly not how your day goes – there is debugging, testing, discussion, only a small portion of your day is spent actually focused on hard core programming.
Programming was just your example, but it does expand into other portions of life too. In my own life I have a lot of trouble staying focused on one thing for too long, so my job and hobbies reflect that. I have a lot of projects and I bounce around between them throughout the day, it works amazingly well for me, I don’t get bored/burnt out by doing one thing too much, and while I’m working on something else I might find inspiration for a project I was working on a couple hours before.
Hang in there
And for the record we all expected our futures to be totally different.